I have posted a lot about Christmas but like a lot of people there has been occasions when I have lost the magic completely. The worst Christmas was the year we lost my younger brother just after his 39th birthday. It was the only year that I never put up a Christmas tree.
I think he would have understood that one but somehow I knew that he would not have understood subsequent years. He was all about living. In fact, he was not a great one for Christmas and pretty much had the same views as my Mum and Dad. However, he did smile at my enthusiasm and I can see see him grinning at me now as I decorate the house and put up my tree. Throughout the year, I think of him but, whenever I go into a church, I will maybe light a candle. It is good to sometimes have a special quiet moment.
I am aware that for anyone that has experienced loss, Christmas can be a difficult time. When you feel sad, it is terribly hard to watch people enjoying themselves and it seems to deepen that feeling of loss or despair. So especially for anyone that is feeling the loss of a loved one, here is a poem together with candles lit on my fireplace:
I will Light Candles this Christmas
by Howard Thurman
I will light Candles this Christmas;
Candles of joy despite all sadness,
Candles of hope where despair keeps watch,
Candles of courage for fears ever present,
Candles of peace for tempest-tossed days,
Candles of grace to ease heavy burdens,
Candles of love to inspire all my living,
Candles that will burn all the year long.
I wish you peaceful thoughts....